He throws that in my face.

Like he would know what he's fucking talking about.

His mommy is there for him 24-7.

Thats some fucked up shit.

I never use my past as an excuse for my behavior and thats really low for him to throw my parents who are fuck ups in my face.

Like its my fault.

Fuck him.

Moving on.

Maybe someone will love me the way I should be loved.

Cant believe I blew off my friends and my life for him. He didnt want to give me anything in return.

Later yo,
Crazy Bitch

Bang bang to my fucking head

I drove to my grandma Rosies and I didnt get lost. Yay


Cory be talking shit about me.

-I fucked up a job

-We are butting heads right now

-Berto would give me the world..but I'm a bitch


A. I didnt fuck up the job. They are gonna call me in two weekes. I dont care whether I get it or not.

B.We're always butting heads, just normally I dont state my opinion. People tell me to grow balls but they dont like it when I tell them shit.

C.I am a bitch but Berto isnt serious about me. I'm a stand in til he looses weight and can find something better. I can feel it.

I'm in self destruct mode. I guess its my defense against being all emotional. Get it before it gets you.

I'm watching Joe Dirt. He makes me happy.

Later bitches

Movies I want to watch, but cant afford:

Disturbia
Blades of Glory
The Reaping
and some other shit.

I dont even like scary movies but I wanna.


Chrissy is in the hospital at the moment and its Ne's bday.

CANDY MAN


Looked and found an apartment with the Matt's.

I was soo into it, but I cant.

My aunt said I cant move back in with her, and that im probably going to have my insurance go up because they wont let me use my gmas address.

Cant do it.

Jamba weds..I'm nervous..kinda.

Well I'm gonna take a nap before my night of partying because thats what I do all the time every minute of the day.

Day Two Of being on the verge of NB: No Better than Day One.


Maria, Kristen, and Cheyanne came to see me last night at work.

They wanted pizza.

Haha.



Its funny how she didnt even notice..even with all the mascara. Lame-o.


Fuck it attitude..totally intact.


Don't text me back..fuck it

Oh geeze I'm such a rebel.


I needa sighn up for school..I just dont know how. I dont wanna do it on my own.

Sleepy.

I think I for really need help.

I dunno what to do anymore..and I'm so tired of the same old bullshit. I'm tired of writting in my lj saying how sad I am.

I just for once want someone to say its ok for me to feel this way. I want someone to say I have had a hard life and I do deserve something a little better. Cant people stop trying to out do the whole my lifes harder.

If people knew..no not even. People still wouldnt give a shit.

I feel used too..like he's only in it for the hook up. Which is fine..but then we should have just left it at friends with benifits. I ended up liking him more than I thought I would.

The world keeps spinning and spinning and I'm still stuck confused.

For my even more emo sound :

I dont wanna be here anymore.

I painted my toenails green..green..

Its kind of nice having a boyfriend.

I like chicken.

My dogs driving me effing insane. He wont shit outside anymore. He was doing really good for a while.

He's so cute though. I always wanted a puppy that would curl up with me and sleep. I have one now. Yay.

I need a new job. Like bad. I'm not going to be able to afford insurance on my granny van. :(

I hate bills.

I hate growing up

I hate being sick.

My voice is so lame. I should get my tonsils removed.

Yes sir. I'm supposed to be cleaning my room so we can put my bed up

(^^^^^^^^^^^Post from Like Last week or something like that^^^^^^^^^^)


I'm alone. For the first time in like a while.

I miss Haylee. I think Margo is very angry with me. I dont have my phone glued to my fucking face and everyone knows I hardly answer it.

Whatever.

Thats abo it.My lame life. I dont know when I became this lame.

I know its my fault so dont worry, I dont expect your sympathy.

Byes

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I'm fucking tired.

Well I gave that phone to my sister and now Cory is mad at me. I didnt think there was anything wrong with helping my sister out and now I'm kinda mad that she's mad at me. Not everyone can be a bitch 24/7.

I passed my driving test so now I can legally drive. Yay.

I went from having 140 yesterday to having 60 today. I kinda dont know where some of that went.

I'm cold and I need a shower. Peace out bitches

I'm sitting here all lame like eating my honey bunches of oats and out of nowhere I realize I like abandoned a lot of my friends. Now I'm sad cause I dunno how to fix it. Or even if I want to. Like why cant I just pick up the phone and call them back? Why is that so hard for me. I guess I dont wanna hear all that their doing. I feel like I should be there with them. I cant though. My family here is so anti friend. The kids almost never hang out with their friends. They just dont unless its at school. Thats so different from me. I lived at my friends houses. Its so weird and I miss it all but I have to let go of it anyways because its not like I can hang out everyday.

I dunno. For those I dont talk to I miss you guys and I didnt really mean it when I said fuck the pville people.

Byes

I guess I'm going to see AFI. Must get the tix